Let me put it this way...

Let me put it this way... When we head for a long journey by car, there are times when we are enjoying, there are times when we are feeling irritated and also there are times when we do not feel anything.. there is a numbness in the nerves..We feel nothing is moving, the journey is stalled you don't have option to retract nor you feel like moving ahead. Sometimes we actually feel this is life also..Things look so unlike they are. Feels as if there is no one around, that sense of insecurity of losing things/people starts playing on mind and suddenly the journey you were enjoying becomes a dull, uneasy sort of a going. And this feeling gets quite complex when there are many other things going around as well. Some important works, some important decisions to be made, something you daily see/read/hear and all this makes it really tough to concentrate on exactly what do you want and that in turn drifts you away from what you thought you would do. You don't even get to know that you have been drifted as if you are in center of an ocean and the undercurrent has taken you somewhere. This somewhere is very annoying if at all you realise it. And you realise it only when after sometime you don't see yourself heading towards where you planned to. So now the bigger question comes 'should you even try planning the future? Well, as human beings we all do, but ideally we shouldn't. If human beings can't do what ideally should be done then who is ideal? Anyway we tend to plan future and if it does not go the way you planned it (which generally it doesn't) then you should ideally have courage to accept that which is easier said than done. So if you cannot or do not want to accept it then what is the way out? A long holiday? Isolation? mental conditioning? getting away from the people whom you thought were yours but now realising they are not? Or just such a thought just for the time being? I mean its quite complicated sometimes when you do not exactly understand what the problem is and you are not liking your journey as well. I often feel like some people whom I think are close to me, are they actually so close? Or I want them to be close and push them a bit and when they do not respond the way I want I feel bad because they are not so close to me as I want them to be. This is critical because a lot of decisions depend on the way they respond. Further life gets complicated when you think a little too much. When you see a negative macro atmosphere around you. See, in past 1 year when ever I have turned on news, I am just seeing how bad India is struggling with corruption, there are new scams unfolding everyday, we are seeing the politicians/corporates whom we idolised until recently are the most corrupt people around, we see the judiciary corrupt and when we actually enter the working area, we see a lot of things around us that leaves us shattered to the core, because in the transition from a boy to man you get to see a lot of activities at macro level that you never imagined could happen and then you do not trust anything. Boss growing up is a serious trouble. But still we all grow up (no other option) but there are certain phases in this journey which we do not like and wish thwy never existed! Signing off Siddharth